Have you ever been so worried or just plain frustrated with something or someone that it consumed your life? Like, something or someone pissed you off so bad, that you always came back to that moment no matter how much you thought you got over it? Well, it’s not healthy. I am only speaking from my experience. I would get so consumed with emotion that I stopped living in the moment, but instead I was reliving the moment that would make me uneasy. Why is that? I honestly believe that it is just a comfortable feeling that really isn’t comfortable at all, but instead familiar. Change can be a headache even if it will benefit us in the long run.
This week, I really started living in the moment. For the first time, I didn’t remind myself why I may be in the situation that I am currently in, but I put that energy into really living. This week started off with me being homesick. My husband took my daughter to her first daddy and daughter dance. They looked so beautiful. All I could think about was why I wasn’t there to enjoy that moment? That’s what kicked off this live in the now. Had I worried about the “why” I couldn’t enjoy the moments my family made sure that I was involved in and witnessed the beauty of this first-time event. I am forever grateful for my village.
I took my first PT test with my current unit with a day notice. I scored the highest in my almost 12-year career, a 290. I really tried. It definitely is a mental process. I don’t feel that I am in any better shape than I was before. I did this for me. Every PT test before this I felt I was doing for something or someone else and it would stress me out. I would be living in the “why” and this PT test proved I can live in the “right now”.
I treated myself to plenty of good eating this week. Closing out my week of good eating, I took a trip into Seoul. A friend raved about a restaurant that would be worth the 45-minute train ride alone. She was so right. I loved everything about this place. The food, atmosphere, and the honesty of the owner. His story is something else and something we can all learn from. Instead of allowing a situation to consume him, he turned it into an awesome delicious place. I will definitely be back for more.
I am really starting to take care of me. I can’t allow my past actions or thoughts consume me, if so, I am going to miss out on life right now. I hope if you are in this type of mindset that you start to begin to let it go. Trust me, it will do wonders.
Comments